13.06.09'

Result was out.

Oh my god....

just when i'm signing in my account, both my hands were shaking and heart was thumping quickly... i don't dare to see actually.. but i still have to face the truth..

Needless to say much, it really draws me to great disappointment..
no one to blame on but me myself for how i had performed during exams time.

i don't know why, i'm so unmotivated to study nowadays seriously..
i'm getting lazier day by day when exams arrived.

W.H.Y ?? =[

In the coming time, i should have do some self-criticism and move forward.
i have to work hard, & it's a MUST!!!!
If you aim at nothing, you'll hit it every time.

Nothing comes without efforts and hard works. Right?

Jocelyn

Finally come to the last, i mean after i've done with my LCCI Text Production Test tomorrow, i will be free for few days :]

i miss my dad, i miss my bro, i miss my grandpa, i miss my cousins, i miss my friends(only few of them who don't answer my phone, heck!), i miss everything except exams.


to be continued.....

My inner heart says...

Hi all, i'm back..
life nowadays are moving on a busier path..and somehow i am getting lazier day by day, duuhh :[
so the first semester trails start today, weeehooo, everyone was like so nervous as this is the very last semester trials for all of the senior 3 students, because few months after, we will be leaving this bloody hell place forever.

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A lot things happen lately and i just don't know how to handle it.
it's hard to express by saying out at certain things that really pissed you off and everything you can do is just bear with it & not saying out a little single word.

wtf right?

You've got everything, and you just don't know it;
you're just too good-hearted and everyone likes you.
you're being hurted at times, but at the same time you've hurted others even more and you don't know.
you cried every time, and i'm the first person to be blamed.
you asked and i gave.
you need i help.
you always think of yourself and that's what i can't bear with it..
when you're bad to others, they dare not to say or criticize but instead they still help you.
but when you've done things wrong, & i'm the one to forgive you.
and when you're in problems, people ask me to comfort, help, and solve it for you.

YOU"VE GOT IT ALL, and you're still dissatisfied, you're still blaming..

i'm not blaming you but all i can do is write. IF i say out a word, then i'm wrong again.
maybe you're right too..

i still love you but i hate you more often..

this is what my inner heart told me
this is how i'm feeling right now.

i too, feel like slapping you to wake you up at times.

what am i supposed to do while facing you and not saying out the truth. i am miserable.
how can i be a true person when you're lying so much things..
i hope things will be nice and remain good when it's all over.

You're the lucky ones to have it all, and you just don't realize it,, how pity of you.
i've been tolerating for your doings for a long time, i hope you can make some improvements.
that's what i hope to see.

and and AND NEVER ask for who i'm writing at.tq

2 papers down and six more papers to go. good luck my friends :)

best wishes,
Jocelyn

Pictures taken lately

My handsome daddy. :)





KFC

Daddy's favourite.

Pictures say it ALL

loves,
Jocelyn =D

Falling

Feels like my life's been passing by
With happiness just bein' a lie
How did I get here, where am I going?
One more day without knowing
Struggling for one more breath
As I'm drowning in a painful death
Can someone reach out for me?
In this dark and dreary sea

Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that's calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

In my isolating misery
I feel like the epitome
Of darkness and despair
Just leading onto nowhere
Will I be able to win this race?
I'm runnin' at a slow pace
Trying hard to press on
But the motivation's gone

It may not have to be this way
Waiting for me they could be a new day
Maybe I can revise
And escape from the lies

There could be something more
To what my life may have in store
I'll move from where I began
Keep on pressing through to THE END

loves,
Jocelyn

There are so much hatred and pressure i've been facing lately but i've no one to turn to...
here is the only place to release...

hmmm, i'm probably don't know where to begin, okay, so....

when i got back the monthly report card today, i had no guts to see at all..really!! i know it's too bad, TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE.
as expected but i didn't let myself felt quite down with the results but instead i felt like slamming people who kept asking bout the results, i really hate it so much kay!!

so here goes something like that:

Eh, how's your results?

*silent* for a moment

what's your BK marks?

*no respond*

and how's your maths har? failed?

f~ck u..i know your marks is higher than me, don't hao lian lar....

*silent* for a second.....

SHIT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU PLEASE NOT ASKING TOO MUCH, it's none of your business, and i don't like people asking it..please STOP it. (burned)

*SILENT SILENT* and then staring me with "behsong" face..

I have to say it again that i'm feeling annoyed.. PLEAASSSSEEEEE no next time...

Nightmares are just about to begin,
and we will soon become so MAD
so be well-prepared before we move on.

GOOD LUCK FRIENDS :)

with loves,

JOCELYN

Senior 3 Outing photostream.

Annyong haseyo Joo, sarangheyo

the so-called "AH SUAK"

ella ella, under my umbrella..ella ehh

ah sai

Mau San

lolinMay sleeping..sheesh

the sweet couple

there was still a long way to go...
but my camera low batt liao... sohai' =]


loves,
Jocelyn