心中有无尽的感慨却无法用言语表达。




咳。。。

Taking back my LOVE.

Omg Enrigue Iglesias..he's so good-looking :]
nice song~

20 SEPT 09

My birthday was over..so i'm 18 now..wow!!

here's the OREO CHEESE cake from secret recipe..had been waiting for few days to reserve..
due to the HARI RAYA. a lot of malays bought directly from there.. =S
but too bad my name was spelt wrongly. real shit! bopian..

thanks to both my dear parents who had done so much things for me :)

& my dad bought the Tiffany's necklace and earings for me days ago..

on my birthday, the first thing i received from JI NENG. hahah. thx
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Just about to leave the car....a note book that i've always wanted to buy but didn't, , surprisingly tim gave it to me.
thanks =]

Amelia and weilin(panda) gave this to me..
handmade punya arr..there are still 2 small bottles inside with messages but they purposely push the cock tightly so i'm trying so hard to pull it out.
so touched man =D
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GUESS WHAT?????!!

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TADA~:>

no doubt..it's Wang Lee Hom --- the so called MUSIC MAN limited edition dvd..
OMG!!~ they got me this.!! Thanks Thanks Thanks to Tim, Pig, Carol, allen, p.c

another exciting moments...
what?! Bausch K? exactly! :)
that's from JOO, Huiii, brandon, juliana & (i can't rmb)
love it so much...THANK YOU ppl~


a handmade strawberry hair pin from chu hui..unbelievable right?
but it's true. and i know it took long time to make :] thank u too~

With all the gifts i received and the greetings, thanks again everyone for remembering my day!!

love you guys for giving me such a wonderful night :)
much appreciate people!!~

loves,
Joy

the last day of my 17th. =[ =]

Today is 18 of sept, and she wore this shirt with numbers - 0918 on it :D
so "chun".. but y not 0919? haha

we headed to the spring-MBO cinemas to watch the 3D movie.
FINAL DESTINATION
ticket prices are around RM18 for A 3D movie.
wtf?!

as you can see...
it was so palace-look & luxury and two of them seemed to have entered a dreamworld.
haaahaha..

but it has its value la..we can now expect for better experience in watching films.

okay i'm gonna stop here.
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here to share some pics of my last 17th
so i'm turning 18 in one more hour time!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself.
XP

13.09.09

Hello readers,
i know i've neglected my bloggie for such a long long time...
exams are just around the corner...
the days we left school are numbered.
real soon, very soon...those nightmares we've been struggling for 6 years will eventually come to a stop. and it's our turn to really say goodbye to this school by then.

no matter what, strive all the best we can.

will be back after oct. =]

GOOD.LUCK.TO.ALL.SENIOR 3.CANDIDATES.2009

You Are Not Alone

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

R.I.P MJ

Account disabled.

My facebook account has been disabled, real shit!!!

what should i do to activate my account.?

Anyone help me, please.

i need urgently.

HELP!!

当正规划着自己理想的时候, 又看着梦想再次破灭.
不是不去想, 而是不敢想..
若想太远, 达不成, 失望更大, 心受到的伤害更深更痛, 对吧?

上了"守财奴"这一课, 让我了解了 "金钱的确比亲情重要" (以我目前的状况看来)..充分体现了现代社会的现实主义者.
在这样的世代, 又有谁不向钱看齐?


没钱, 真的什么都办不成.
有了钱, 什么都难不成.


我还是有情感的啦, 因为情势所逼, 不得不面对现实, 这是我心里最真切的感受, 读完后, 不要怨我.

23.06.09

Happy 20th birthday to steph~

with loves,
Jocelyn C:

both my daddy and bro are coming back tomorrow..

i'm waiting for the reunion dinner.

HahahAha:)

Thanks JOO

you know what i'm mentioning at aight, hehe

much appreciate & love lots :)

TQ~

Jocelyn

13.06.09'

Result was out.

Oh my god....

just when i'm signing in my account, both my hands were shaking and heart was thumping quickly... i don't dare to see actually.. but i still have to face the truth..

Needless to say much, it really draws me to great disappointment..
no one to blame on but me myself for how i had performed during exams time.

i don't know why, i'm so unmotivated to study nowadays seriously..
i'm getting lazier day by day when exams arrived.

W.H.Y ?? =[

In the coming time, i should have do some self-criticism and move forward.
i have to work hard, & it's a MUST!!!!
If you aim at nothing, you'll hit it every time.

Nothing comes without efforts and hard works. Right?

Jocelyn

Finally come to the last, i mean after i've done with my LCCI Text Production Test tomorrow, i will be free for few days :]

i miss my dad, i miss my bro, i miss my grandpa, i miss my cousins, i miss my friends(only few of them who don't answer my phone, heck!), i miss everything except exams.


to be continued.....

My inner heart says...

Hi all, i'm back..
life nowadays are moving on a busier path..and somehow i am getting lazier day by day, duuhh :[
so the first semester trails start today, weeehooo, everyone was like so nervous as this is the very last semester trials for all of the senior 3 students, because few months after, we will be leaving this bloody hell place forever.

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A lot things happen lately and i just don't know how to handle it.
it's hard to express by saying out at certain things that really pissed you off and everything you can do is just bear with it & not saying out a little single word.

wtf right?

You've got everything, and you just don't know it;
you're just too good-hearted and everyone likes you.
you're being hurted at times, but at the same time you've hurted others even more and you don't know.
you cried every time, and i'm the first person to be blamed.
you asked and i gave.
you need i help.
you always think of yourself and that's what i can't bear with it..
when you're bad to others, they dare not to say or criticize but instead they still help you.
but when you've done things wrong, & i'm the one to forgive you.
and when you're in problems, people ask me to comfort, help, and solve it for you.

YOU"VE GOT IT ALL, and you're still dissatisfied, you're still blaming..

i'm not blaming you but all i can do is write. IF i say out a word, then i'm wrong again.
maybe you're right too..

i still love you but i hate you more often..

this is what my inner heart told me
this is how i'm feeling right now.

i too, feel like slapping you to wake you up at times.

what am i supposed to do while facing you and not saying out the truth. i am miserable.
how can i be a true person when you're lying so much things..
i hope things will be nice and remain good when it's all over.

You're the lucky ones to have it all, and you just don't realize it,, how pity of you.
i've been tolerating for your doings for a long time, i hope you can make some improvements.
that's what i hope to see.

and and AND NEVER ask for who i'm writing at.tq

2 papers down and six more papers to go. good luck my friends :)

best wishes,
Jocelyn

Pictures taken lately

My handsome daddy. :)





KFC

Daddy's favourite.

Pictures say it ALL

loves,
Jocelyn =D

Falling

Feels like my life's been passing by
With happiness just bein' a lie
How did I get here, where am I going?
One more day without knowing
Struggling for one more breath
As I'm drowning in a painful death
Can someone reach out for me?
In this dark and dreary sea

Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that's calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

In my isolating misery
I feel like the epitome
Of darkness and despair
Just leading onto nowhere
Will I be able to win this race?
I'm runnin' at a slow pace
Trying hard to press on
But the motivation's gone

It may not have to be this way
Waiting for me they could be a new day
Maybe I can revise
And escape from the lies

There could be something more
To what my life may have in store
I'll move from where I began
Keep on pressing through to THE END

loves,
Jocelyn

There are so much hatred and pressure i've been facing lately but i've no one to turn to...
here is the only place to release...

hmmm, i'm probably don't know where to begin, okay, so....

when i got back the monthly report card today, i had no guts to see at all..really!! i know it's too bad, TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE.
as expected but i didn't let myself felt quite down with the results but instead i felt like slamming people who kept asking bout the results, i really hate it so much kay!!

so here goes something like that:

Eh, how's your results?

*silent* for a moment

what's your BK marks?

*no respond*

and how's your maths har? failed?

f~ck u..i know your marks is higher than me, don't hao lian lar....

*silent* for a second.....

SHIT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU PLEASE NOT ASKING TOO MUCH, it's none of your business, and i don't like people asking it..please STOP it. (burned)

*SILENT SILENT* and then staring me with "behsong" face..

I have to say it again that i'm feeling annoyed.. PLEAASSSSEEEEE no next time...

Nightmares are just about to begin,
and we will soon become so MAD
so be well-prepared before we move on.

GOOD LUCK FRIENDS :)

with loves,

JOCELYN

Senior 3 Outing photostream.

Annyong haseyo Joo, sarangheyo

the so-called "AH SUAK"

ella ella, under my umbrella..ella ehh

ah sai

Mau San

lolinMay sleeping..sheesh

the sweet couple

there was still a long way to go...
but my camera low batt liao... sohai' =]


loves,
Jocelyn