Life is MAGNIFIQUE ♥

有些事、我们逃不掉

2011-08-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

我们会莫名的感到孤单。虽然身边有兄弟姐妹，有亲人朋友。

但是我们还是会觉得自己有时候仍然是路人甲，是局外人。

我们不得不面对有些人的离去。心理学上讲，悲伤的根本原因是因为分离。

比如戴了许多年的项链在在某一天之后永远找不到了。

比如曾经以为可以天长地久的谁在某一天突然丢下你了。

比如从小照顾你的爷爷奶奶在某一天突然离开了。

没有人理解的压抑。

有时候没人理解你，因为我们每个人都站在不同的角度。

高度不同，长度不同，人生的半径不同，阅历不同。怎么可能去体谅另一个人。

有时候觉得世界只有自己一个人，其余都是陌生人。

排山倒海的压力。

工作，学习，人际，感情，家庭。

如果这些都一股脑向你扑来，压得我们透不过气。

想大哭一场。无论你是男生还是女生。

看不起。

无论你的位子是高还是矮，都会有人用不懈的眼光看你。

你也许对这些眼神很敏感，对这些语言很敏感，但是你永远也不能改变有些人的高傲。

爱不起。

你觉得ta太优秀了，太完美了。

你们完全是两个世界的人，怎么可能走到一起呢。

即使走到一起了，两个人能承受某些客观的束缚么？

你很爱ta ，但只是爱不起。

感动。

电影里一句不经意的台词，却揭开了你心里的那道暗疮。

MP3里面永远删不掉的那首歌，记载着某年某月的情节。

长大了才知道十几岁的叛逆，换来的总是父母关怀的眼神。

奢侈的挥霍。

我们还年轻。所以我们总是挥霍时间。

有时候会觉得自己已经很成熟，有时候会恨自己为什么不能独立。

像孩子一样，挥霍着我们无处安放的青春。

Who am i ?

2011-07-24T04:52:00.000-07:00

I FRET. Too much !

Turn on and tune in

2011-05-18T00:51:00.000-07:00

Make today a voyage of discovery.
Peer over those railings and peek down that stairwell.
See what the rest of the world has going on.
Turn on and tune in,
listen to what's going on around you.
There's a different pulse to each moment and brand-new life in every day.
There's a symphony in each and every one of us,
just waiting to be performed.

loves,
Joy

My Homboy's B'day

2011-05-17T05:35:00.000-07:00

It's homboy music-man big day today, wishing you the great things in life & hoping that your daywill be as special as you are. Thanks for bringing us wonderful songs all the time and the hard work you've done. You're the best of everything. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE HOM & have a fabulous one! Jocelyn :) xoxo

Below was written by one of the homies combining his songs into a letter :

Dear lee hom , you will be FOREVER LOVE-d by us , homies. You're our one and only our WEI YI . We will never give you a KISS GOODBYE because we don't want to say goodbye . You bring us to LING YI GE TIAN TANG whenever you sing . Altho NI HE WO men are not always together but you should know that our heart is always with you . Altho NI BU ZAI our side , but we know you love us with your heart . We know our love for you will never be AI CHUO . YI SHOU JIAN DAN DE GE from you can be WO MEN DE GE for our life . We thank you for your hard work . When you SHU YAO REN PEI always remember that we will always be here . We dont mind going TIAN YA HAI JIAO just for you . This might be NI BU ZHE DAO DE SHI but whenever we see you go slimmer we get really hurt so rest more , dont work too hard okay ? You Wang Lee Hom make our XIN TIAO skip a beat each time we hear your voice . Lee hom , us homies AI DE JIU SHI NI . OUR MUSIC MAN , MOVIE MAN , OUR MAN ♥ happy birthday (':

I ♥ YOU, LEE HOM

much loves,
JOY

(17 May 2011)

S'wak Cultural Village

2011-05-15T07:57:00.000-07:00

the blowpipe shooting man

the unique craving

wonder why she kept looking at me? and for a moment, i thought
this lil girl 'were' the lil me,,so i grabbed my camera and snap it straight away.
i showed my papa this photo and he said
really looked like the mini-me, a lottttttt.

see you agn during rainfest' ?

CIAO!

loves,
JOY

OoompBollywood

2011-05-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

Don't be surprised but yes i do watch bollywood movies, i mean like...urrrghhh once in a while.. :P
and lately i just finish watching "I Hate Luv Storys".

It's all about a love story between Jay (Imran Khan) & Simran (Sonam Kapoor). Jay is an assistant of a love film director. Jay is the one who used to hate love stories and believes that there isn't true love in this world and only exists in fairy tales.
And there he met Simran, who lives a perfect life and has a perfect fiancee. After their first met in the cinema, Simran got irritated much and appointed him to be her assistant the next day.

However, things turned up differently, that both of them had been through ups and downs, twists and turns and soon she developed a bond with him, and she decided to tell Jay her feelings and thought Jay felt the same way but jay never thought of her that way.
Simran was heartbroken and then she leaves. Jay began to realize that she's been leaving so far, he missed her so much and the moment they'd been through.
In the end, he started to do things to make her back and Simran, accepted the fact that she didn't love her fiancee anymore after a long thought and run back to Jay and it's where their love journey begins.

Btw, imran khan is really cute and charming. i like him tho :D lolx

Am weird? O.o nononoooo !
It's cool. Bollywood movies are still cool somehow. soooo...What do you think :P ?

much ♥,
JOY

It's been awhile..

2011-05-10T05:48:00.000-07:00

Hi bloggie.. I miss you :)

like seriously, i've forgotten i own a blog here due to the advance development of facebook, tumblr, twitter...all those 'multitask' website that keep people occupied all day long, and how many care for blogging nowadays huh?
alright, i have nothing much to say la..just dropping by to say hello to everyone and my bloggie hehehh

thanks god for making me realized u did exist, still ?
:D

tell ya i kinda love this song lately.

Gtg, enjoyyyy and have a good time ppl.

loves,
JOY

Paint a mental picture

2011-01-06T00:45:00.000-08:00

Get out of the town for the day
Out to where the air is clean,
The paths are quiet and where all signs of man's interference with nature are out of sight.
Look, really look, about when you're there and pick a spot to be your very own spot.
Bury something you love at that place...
A coin, a bead...something simple, then look again until you can close your eyes and remember it just as it is.
From that point on in life you'll know you have a little picture in your mind of a quiet place.
Where you can go at will just by closing your eyes.

W-H-Y

2010-12-08T04:51:00.000-08:00

我喜欢的，我喜爱的，我看中的，永远永远都离我很远。

是注定的还是。。

为什么？为什么？为什么。。？

2010-11-02T07:35:00.000-07:00

OMG. i miss you more day by day

& this is the worst part. ewww

X.x

Love in disguise

2010-08-09T07:16:00.000-07:00

loves,
JOY

2010-08-05T06:36:00.000-07:00

there's never a right time to say goodbye..
maybe it's good to end up this way.

R.I.P tegan :(

2010-07-28T19:09:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine has just passed away days ago suffering of leukemia, words can't express how im feeling inside, and i know everyone is feeling real sad about it. But we just can't do anything with it to bring her back to this world, and now she's gone forever.

She used to be my senior few years back ago during high school and was my first senior friend when i was in J1. She came in my class and walked to my seat promoting about the English Soceity Club to me and asked me to join.
She was the most cheerful person i've known so far that carrying with a radiant smile on face everyday, she was being friendly and kind to everyone in school, and i do really like her.

By second chance, i met her again at ah-teck tuition, that's how i got to know her better, she's so good to talk to, the way she talk will cheer you up everytime, she made us smile and laugh when we're down. It was just like yesterday, she's just talking right in front of me and telling me what her dreams are, how she wanted to make it happen and fulfill & still share a lot of life experiences with me.

And remember the way how she admired lee hom, how she used to like him so much, how great and how handsome he is...

Till now, i still can't believe it's true, but, she's really gone, what left now are just memories, her cheerfulness and laughter will always remember and be kept in the bottom of our heart forever.

but why everytime good-hearted poeple leave earlier?

She's just a girl like everyone does with so many dreams waiting to fulfill and accomplish, but now, why god you bring her away from this world.??

After struggling with her illness so hard, but still she losed the game in the end. It's so hard to accept that she's gone forever, but this is the fact.
I will never forget you and your lovely smile, may your soul rest in peace forever Tegan xue jie..

<3

My latest obsession ♥

2010-07-13T01:35:00.000-07:00

it's him.

...

....

.....

DAVID VILLA SANCHEZ

2010-05-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

我的心很乱，我需要时间！plssss.

22 MAY

2010-05-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

"One day you will love me, the way i loved you. One day you will think of me the way i thought of you. One day you will cry for me, the way i cried for you. And one day you will want me, but i won't want you."

2010-05-19T04:59:00.000-07:00

Once i said it out, it's the time i really have to let you go....
but when i recalled back the memories and read through all the messages you wrote, my eyes were filled with tears..i don't know why?
am i too wrong? but i think i've made a good decision for us, for U - just let go, just leave me alone.
I do feel really sorry for you, for letting you down at times but thousand of thanks to you, your precious time, & things you've done.
Last but not least, i hope you'll be happy always.

I quit this game. so it's the end now.

but why I felt so hard to say GOOD-BYE this time.?

2010-05-17T23:48:00.000-07:00

im getting tired of this game.

could u feel it???

i know u won't cuz u aren't me...

Yesterday and Tomorrow

2010-05-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry.

Two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One of these days is yesterday with its mistakes and cares.

Its faults and blunders, Its aches and pains.

Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control.

All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday.

We cannot undo any single act we performed.

We cannot erase any single word we said. Yesterday is gone.

The other day we should not worry about is tomorrow.

With its possible adversities, its burdens,

Its large promise and poor performance.

Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control.

Tomorrow's Sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise.

Until it does, we have no stake in tomorrow, for it is yet unborn.

This just leaves only one day....Today.

Any person can fight the battles of just one day.

It is only you and I add the burdens of two awful eternity's-Yesterday and Tomorrow that we break down.

It is not the experience of today that drives people mad.

It is the remourse or bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread what tomorrow may bring.

Let us therefore live but one day at a time.

2010-05-01T05:18:00.000-07:00

There's something i feel i need to say, for so long, but up till now i always been afraid....
i have no guts to say yes...you know.? my mind is telling me yes but my heart isn't =[ i honestly couldn't give you any promise, am really sorry for letting you down, one more time.? sorry k. i didnt mean to hurt u this way..seriously. I do hope you could understand my circumstances and Thanks for the time all this while anyway, SMILE =) (: pleaseeee...

XOXO

Quotes of the day ;)

2010-03-12T03:40:00.000-08:00

2010-02-27T07:36:00.000-08:00

i dreamt of you last night.

我爱他

2010-02-25T23:13:00.000-08:00

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

2010-02-05T07:10:00.000-08:00

BONJOUR..
just want to say hello.. :) mwhahhahha nitez!!

31 of jan

2010-01-31T03:41:00.000-08:00

一张大床，我一个人睡，突然变得好寂静。第一次感到那么寂寞。。
翻来覆去又睡不着，想了很多事情，想daddy mummy, 想朋友，想王力宏（虽然很不切实际）但我真的很想见到他，不过想得最多终究是你，最后，泪了。
早上醒来，刷牙洗脸，就跟朋友出去吃pizza, shopping...then home.
哥又出去，又我一人，下午跟brit他们去the spring shopped..又花$$买东西
拜二test I, 又是考试，幸好离开一中了，所谓的“黑暗时代”结束了，不过的确非常想念在一中的一切，现在踏入社会，没有训导处，教务处，辅导处，没有人管了，也不怕什么扣分记过啦。。自由了，所以一切都得学会扛。
同学全都各分杨彪，每个都有各自的梦想要去追寻。。。
人生就是如此，充满种种的无奈，千姿百态，起伏不定，不懂何时会跌倒。。何时会受伤。。
我们要学会惜福，生活就会变得精彩。

待续。。

I miss you mummy. so badly :[

30 Jan 10

2010-01-29T23:47:00.000-08:00

Everytime i look through her eyes, i know there's sadness and sorrow behind..
i know she has a lot to tell, but she pretends to be strong and cheerful....
Tears immediately streamed down her cheeks after she poured everything out,
i know it's really painful inside to lose someone one you loved....

We will be with you always, stay strong SHARON :)

sweet dream or beautiful nightmare?

2010-01-07T20:06:00.000-08:00

The whole things happened was so wonderful..pretty good, it's fantastic.
It's you & your sincere smile that i miss it so so much, seriously =]
just when i'm about to reach you, i was awakened by the distraction of the phone calls...by that time, i realized it was just a dream.. =[

I know it doesn't exist in my real life, but the feelings were so great..
why am i still thinking? i hope i could've walked out from the past and accept the fact.
you're so close yet so far away from here..

Everything were just an illusion, it doesn't worth recalling.

it's a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare?

1st post of 2010

2010-01-07T03:43:00.000-08:00

HOLA!

First of all, life is almost back on track nowadays after experiencing so many things, matterS as well..
and hmm, i started schooling as usual & i'm currently studying in INTI college swk, taking Hotel Management programme, of course i'm new fresh student there, met quite a lot ex-schoolmates and friends, i even met Alven and Nana there. whaoooo.
You'll never believe that one of my lecturer was my Senior during high school, she's just 4 years elder than me....she's awesome! hoping someday i would be like her standing in front of everyone and teach. that's really nice yay, and really interesting experience...ngagahahah.
I met new friends there of course, one of them is from china, shanghai weeiiiii(rich country) she's really good to be with, nice to talk to, she's pretty..and i taught her our Bahasa Malaysia as she's so eager to learn some.
so, here it goes.
Sayang, saya cinta kamu. =) she quickly wrote down the pronounciation in chinese, so funny man =DD i guess she gonna tell her bf in uk. hahha

Above all, i would like to thanks my dear friend yvonne aka bun whom is always there helping me all this while and Alven who took me around in the college on the first day =)

Looking back again, i was still a nerdy with tidy uniform but 2009 is far away from us...
IT'S 2010, we have to move towards instead of backwards...it's a brand new year.

I hope it's a really brand new and good year for me & you.

p.s: happy birthday to my dearest mummy on 6th of Jan..you're such a great mum. she even cooked herself on her Big big day..because daddy not around lately. she suffers a lot..=[ But Thanks for everything mummy~!!

TATA''

Best wishes,
Joy

2009-11-29T05:07:00.000-08:00

心中有无尽的感慨却无法用言语表达。

咳。。。

Anything...bla bla blaaa

2009-11-19T21:01:00.000-08:00

hey y'all..

i'm breathing, yeah still :)
so... i'm so FREE now, but will be started working in 2 days.
hmmm...everything has done almost finish-ed. The to-do lists are lesser nowadays ;]

IT'S DONE.

.exams

.trips

.commencement

.prom night

IT'S OVER~

& there's is something i gotta say..

I do miss SABAH trip so much, seriously.
but now what's left are just photos which could drawn us back to the good times we hang around together, shopped together...

i miss friends
i miss the flight xp
i miss UNO game
i miss MARINA COURT
i miss laughter of do during nights
i miss FOOT SPA that we didn't get a chance to massage
i miss borrowing hairdryer from sandy
i miss hot spring :]
i miss the times we crossed 6 drawbridges which scared us to death
i miss the shuttle service to ONE BORNEO =]
i miss every little things we spent together

picture speaks it all ppl..

see how cheerful we were =DD

I MISS a whole lot more things...& yeah i miss everyone =]

what's next? =S

Taking back my LOVE.

2009-09-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

Omg Enrigue Iglesias..he's so good-looking :]
nice song~

20 SEPT 09

2009-09-20T06:39:00.000-07:00

My birthday was over..so i'm 18 now..wow!!

here's the OREO CHEESE cake from secret recipe..had been waiting for few days to reserve..
due to the HARI RAYA. a lot of malays bought directly from there.. =S
but too bad my name was spelt wrongly. real shit! bopian..

thanks to both my dear parents who had done so much things for me :)

& my dad bought the Tiffany's necklace and earings for me days ago..

on my birthday, the first thing i received from JI NENG. hahah. thx
-
-
-

Just about to leave the car....a note book that i've always wanted to buy but didn't, , surprisingly tim gave it to me.
thanks =]

Amelia and weilin(panda) gave this to me..
handmade punya arr..there are still 2 small bottles inside with messages but they purposely push the cock tightly so i'm trying so hard to pull it out.
so touched man =D
.
...
....
.....

GUESS WHAT?????!!

?
??

TADA~:>

no doubt..it's Wang Lee Hom --- the so called MUSIC MAN limited edition dvd..
OMG!!~ they got me this.!! Thanks Thanks Thanks to Tim, Pig, Carol, allen, p.c

another exciting moments...
what?! Bausch K? exactly! :)
that's from JOO, Huiii, brandon, juliana & (i can't rmb)
love it so much...THANK YOU ppl~

a handmade strawberry hair pin from chu hui..unbelievable right?
but it's true. and i know it took long time to make :] thank u too~

With all the gifts i received and the greetings, thanks again everyone for remembering my day!!

love you guys for giving me such a wonderful night :)
much appreciate people!!~

loves,
Joy

the last day of my 17th. =[ =]

2009-09-18T07:14:00.000-07:00

Today is 18 of sept, and she wore this shirt with numbers - 0918 on it :D
so "chun".. but y not 0919? haha

we headed to the spring-MBO cinemas to watch the 3D movie.
FINAL DESTINATION
ticket prices are around RM18 for A 3D movie.
wtf?!

as you can see...
it was so palace-look & luxury and two of them seemed to have entered a dreamworld.
haaahaha..

but it has its value la..we can now expect for better experience in watching films.

okay i'm gonna stop here.
.
.
.
.
here to share some pics of my last 17th
so i'm turning 18 in one more hour time!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself.
XP

13.09.09

2009-09-13T05:15:00.000-07:00

Hello readers,
i know i've neglected my bloggie for such a long long time...
exams are just around the corner...
the days we left school are numbered.
real soon, very soon...those nightmares we've been struggling for 6 years will eventually come to a stop. and it's our turn to really say goodbye to this school by then.

no matter what, strive all the best we can.

will be back after oct. =]

GOOD.LUCK.TO.ALL.SENIOR 3.CANDIDATES.2009

You Are Not Alone

2009-07-24T23:01:00.000-07:00

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

R.I.P MJ

Account disabled.

2009-07-13T05:15:00.000-07:00

My facebook account has been disabled, real shit!!!

what should i do to activate my account.?

Anyone help me, please.

i need urgently.

HELP!!

2009-07-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

当正规划着自己理想的时候, 又看着梦想再次破灭.
不是不去想, 而是不敢想..
若想太远, 达不成, 失望更大, 心受到的伤害更深更痛, 对吧?

上了"守财奴"这一课, 让我了解了 "金钱的确比亲情重要" (以我目前的状况看来)..充分体现了现代社会的现实主义者.
在这样的世代, 又有谁不向钱看齐?

没钱, 真的什么都办不成.
有了钱, 什么都难不成.

我还是有情感的啦, 因为情势所逼, 不得不面对现实, 这是我心里最真切的感受, 读完后, 不要怨我.

23.06.09

2009-06-24T06:52:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th birthday to steph~

with loves,
Jocelyn C:

2009-06-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

both my daddy and bro are coming back tomorrow..

i'm waiting for the reunion dinner.

HahahAha:)

2009-06-14T04:40:00.000-07:00

Thanks JOO

you know what i'm mentioning at aight, hehe

much appreciate & love lots :)

TQ~

Jocelyn

13.06.09'

2009-06-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

Result was out.

Oh my god....

just when i'm signing in my account, both my hands were shaking and heart was thumping quickly... i don't dare to see actually.. but i still have to face the truth..

Needless to say much, it really draws me to great disappointment..
no one to blame on but me myself for how i had performed during exams time.

i don't know why, i'm so unmotivated to study nowadays seriously..
i'm getting lazier day by day when exams arrived.

W.H.Y ?? =[

In the coming time, i should have do some self-criticism and move forward.
i have to work hard, & it's a MUST!!!!
If you aim at nothing, you'll hit it every time.

Nothing comes without efforts and hard works. Right?

Jocelyn

2009-06-09T06:13:00.000-07:00

Finally come to the last, i mean after i've done with my LCCI Text Production Test tomorrow, i will be free for few days :]

i miss my dad, i miss my bro, i miss my grandpa, i miss my cousins, i miss my friends(only few of them who don't answer my phone, heck!), i miss everything except exams.

to be continued.....

My inner heart says...

2009-05-23T06:29:00.000-07:00

Hi all, i'm back..
life nowadays are moving on a busier path..and somehow i am getting lazier day by day, duuhh :[
so the first semester trails start today, weeehooo, everyone was like so nervous as this is the very last semester trials for all of the senior 3 students, because few months after, we will be leaving this bloody hell place forever.

--
A lot things happen lately and i just don't know how to handle it.
it's hard to express by saying out at certain things that really pissed you off and everything you can do is just bear with it & not saying out a little single word.

wtf right?

You've got everything, and you just don't know it;
you're just too good-hearted and everyone likes you.
you're being hurted at times, but at the same time you've hurted others even more and you don't know.
you cried every time, and i'm the first person to be blamed.
you asked and i gave.
you need i help.
you always think of yourself and that's what i can't bear with it..
when you're bad to others, they dare not to say or criticize but instead they still help you.
but when you've done things wrong, & i'm the one to forgive you.
and when you're in problems, people ask me to comfort, help, and solve it for you.

YOU"VE GOT IT ALL, and you're still dissatisfied, you're still blaming..

i'm not blaming you but all i can do is write. IF i say out a word, then i'm wrong again.
maybe you're right too..

i still love you but i hate you more often..

this is what my inner heart told me
this is how i'm feeling right now.

i too, feel like slapping you to wake you up at times.

what am i supposed to do while facing you and not saying out the truth. i am miserable.
how can i be a true person when you're lying so much things..
i hope things will be nice and remain good when it's all over.

You're the lucky ones to have it all, and you just don't realize it,, how pity of you.
i've been tolerating for your doings for a long time, i hope you can make some improvements.
that's what i hope to see.

and and AND NEVER ask for who i'm writing at.tq

2 papers down and six more papers to go. good luck my friends :)

best wishes,
Jocelyn

Pictures taken lately

2009-04-27T05:13:00.000-07:00

My handsome daddy. :)

KFC

Daddy's favourite.

Pictures say it ALL

loves,
Jocelyn =D

Falling

2009-04-19T01:54:00.000-07:00

Feels like my life's been passing by
With happiness just bein' a lie
How did I get here, where am I going?
One more day without knowing
Struggling for one more breath
As I'm drowning in a painful death
Can someone reach out for me?
In this dark and dreary sea

Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that's calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

In my isolating misery
I feel like the epitome
Of darkness and despair
Just leading onto nowhere
Will I be able to win this race?
I'm runnin' at a slow pace
Trying hard to press on
But the motivation's gone

It may not have to be this way
Waiting for me they could be a new day
Maybe I can revise
And escape from the lies

There could be something more
To what my life may have in store
I'll move from where I began
Keep on pressing through to THE END

loves,
Jocelyn

2009-04-15T06:32:00.000-07:00

There are so much hatred and pressure i've been facing lately but i've no one to turn to...
here is the only place to release...

hmmm, i'm probably don't know where to begin, okay, so....

when i got back the monthly report card today, i had no guts to see at all..really!! i know it's too bad, TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE.
as expected but i didn't let myself felt quite down with the results but instead i felt like slamming people who kept asking bout the results, i really hate it so much kay!!

so here goes something like that:

Eh, how's your results?

*silent* for a moment

what's your BK marks?

*no respond*

and how's your maths har? failed?

f~ck u..i know your marks is higher than me, don't hao lian lar....

*silent* for a second.....

SHIT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU PLEASE NOT ASKING TOO MUCH, it's none of your business, and i don't like people asking it..please STOP it. (burned)

*SILENT SILENT* and then staring me with "behsong" face..

I have to say it again that i'm feeling annoyed.. PLEAASSSSEEEEE no next time...

Nightmares are just about to begin,
and we will soon become so MAD
so be well-prepared before we move on.

GOOD LUCK FRIENDS :)

with loves,

JOCELYN

Senior 3 Outing photostream.

2009-03-28T07:09:00.000-07:00

Annyong haseyo Joo, sarangheyo

the so-called "AH SUAK"

ella ella, under my umbrella..ella ehh

ah sai

Mau San

lolinMay sleeping..sheesh

the sweet couple

there was still a long way to go...
but my camera low batt liao... sohai' =]

loves,
Jocelyn

2009-03-25T02:57:00.000-07:00

没什么啦, 只不过是很期待明天的 "户外教学". !!

=D

Random

2009-03-22T05:04:00.000-07:00

Days ago, on the way back from KGS.

please tolerate of my expression..
waiting for sharon.

Grinned =]

..BOO..

i saw a pretty good-looking guy this morning, very handsome wor.. C:

Too bored to post up =D haha, i know this is random..

In a blink of an eye, one week, OVER, whao...
SCHOOL again..
& it's time for suffering AGAIN =[.

Jocelyn

2009-03-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

It's a korean MV and i found that it's quite touching..feel free to browse. =]

2009-03-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

wtf!!?? SPM sucks!!!!!!!!

...........................................................................................................................................................................

Once again,

HAPPY SWEET 18th to my dearest Keely :)

& Congrats JOO for the law test..you're probably on cloud nine now. geeeeezzzzzz. =D

best wishes,
Jocelyn

2009-03-05T01:09:00.000-08:00

I could say nothing at all...
i'm just feeling great disappointment on myself...

FOR not doing the very best.

what else?..

Jocelyn

2009-02-14T06:30:00.000-08:00

Back here~ :DD
..

....

it's only the second week of school after CNY, and it's already FULL of tests, whatever monthly tests or "zong ce", it's like so Fast, i mean.....soooo ruuuuussssshhhhhhh!! we didn't even have time to hang out more often like before, or having like a reunion dinner or what, & we're like lacking time for surfing net....duh :[
my time are fully occupied with courses and tuitions(i guess most of u too), and most of the time i get back home, it's already around 7 or 8pm, then still have to rush for tuition class...
after that, i just have the time to revise the test for the next day...and the marks aren't satisfying, like HISTORY, it's about 15 essay questions and i only learnt about 3 questions...
forget about it lah.. it's useless crying over spilt milk ba =.=

skip.

skip..

SKIP.

--

----

talking about yesterday, i was feeling terribly ILL.
my stomache was grumbling, and my head was spinning.....i woke up at around 4am, my stomache was so pain, and the pain was unbearable, i rushed to the toilet about 4 times..WTF..
i still resist to go to school, but feeling so sick and slept in the classroom the whole morning..
went back home after 1pm and unable to attend tuition class and finally get some more rest =]

i'm feeling much better today :D

NOTE: I maybe missing in action for a little while, you guys probably wont see me some time or maybe quite a long time here, i should get back to STUDY. i mean IT!!

Study, study, and STUDY.
Good luck FRIENDS
&
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY
~

I HEART YOU ALL :)

Loves,
Jocelyn

2009-02-11T06:47:00.000-08:00

-will be updating some day to come-

BUSY :S

2009-01-25T07:25:00.000-08:00

Have i painted a picture too perfect?
it's hard to imagine...even to me,
i hope i could get through it some day....
in this brand new year.

Once again, HAPPY sweet 18th bun. :) hope you've a memorable day ya ^^
& do keep in touch..

count-ing down.
half an hour more to go.
HAPPY CNY 09 y'All.

The very start of school days in S3

2009-01-10T03:35:00.000-08:00

One week over, and it's the very first week of schooling, & there are already a pile of works awaiting me to do & complete.
okay, well. Being a senior 3 student, this is a hard year for me with a LOADS of tests coming up to cope with, i'm scared, don't you?
I know i have to work very very hard, and score good results, & hoping that it won't let myself down in the end. =]
the most headache part are those expenses spent within a month(a week to be exact) exam fees, tuition fees, course fees, and a lot of stuffs. Almost a thousand are gone already in this only starting school days. OMG... i'm worrying of facing bankruptcy in a very short time. eh eh, no laughing matter, it's true. And it makes me don't dare to think about the next, i mean studying in a college or Uni in the future..

I need more MONEY, i'm searching everywhere to gain some more money to survive.
but till now, i still earn a $0.

It's the most suffering year compare to those past years in high school i guess, i have the desire to do better, no matter what, i'll try my best to cope & make through it but i'm not making any promises i can't keep.

In a short note,

HAPPT 18th to TIM =D
&
Congrats for being an adult finally.

Signing off,
Jocelyn

Goodbye 2008 & Welcome 2009 ! : )

2008-12-31T07:06:00.000-08:00

With Christmas over, it finally comes to the last piece of sheet on the calendar, and we know that the last day of the year has arrived.

I have nothing much to say..time flies..
It's too late to complain how much things you have not fulfilled and how many faults you have done in the previous years..
forget about it :D let's do better and make no regrets in the coming new year ahead..
The old year has gone and let the dead past bury its own dead, drop the old year into the silent limbo of the past. Let it go,for it was imperfect, but thanks god it can go.

May all of you be blessed with a wonderful and prosperous New Year!!
I wish HAPPINESS & JOY and blessings for the new year.
and i wish all of you the best in everything that all of you so well deserve. =)

So, c'mon, let say our last Goodbye to 2008 and Welcome 2009 ~

HAPPY 2009 People. ;p

2008-12-29T19:54:00.000-08:00

Here are those videos taken on Sherlyn's Wedding dinner night..

It's an truly amazing night with great performance by THEM! relatives from all over the world dancing along together....

Everyone was super HIGH.!! c'mon, take a look

The kids dance along...

& here's the videos the night spent at sherlyn's place..

Chit-chatting away with the kids & Sebastian..it's quite funny.. ;p

It's ben boo dancing..hahaha

and this's Ben boo saying "WO AI NI"...cool =D

Ben booo & i at sherlyn's place

By the way, bon voyage to Ben & family who are flying back to England today..i gonna miss em' a lot, A LOT ^^

Aunt Sherlyn's Wedding

2008-12-25T20:56:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a blast...

It's Christmas day and also Aunt Sherlyn's super great day..
& mostly important, it's a day meeting all the cousins around the world... =)

so, let those pictures speak themselves as well,

that's MR giant & Derek

here i amBen boo is here too..usthe cousinsfabulous three..nice shot ;p Alec( Lee hom from uk) & i =p

again...it's ben booo and me

posing weirdly that's her from Saudi Arab..the funniest person i've met.

geeeez...smug little grin =]

here's the group photo..

cousins from around the world

mehhh..another good shot ;p

Sebastian and me, cousin from Miri..he is great at debating..
don't play play..quite famous one

Alec, cousin from Great Britain-ENGLAND-my dream place =]

The bride and me.

& more photos on facebook. =)

Jocelyn

2008-12-24T04:18:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone..
i just arrived Kuching hours ago, and i'm frigging exhausted and tired.

I need sleep now.

i will update my blog as soon as possible.

By the way, Merry Christmas to all of you. ;)

& more photos to come..heez!

Jocelyn

2008-12-17T19:03:00.000-08:00

Hi guys..

I'm here greeting from KLIA...

2008-12-16T19:18:00.000-08:00

hey hey

i'm going on vacation tomorrow...

*will be updated when i come back =]*
see you guys then..

TATA ~

to be continued....
...

It's here Finally ;)

2008-12-14T04:12:00.000-08:00

It's here finally,

HEARTBEAT by Wang Lee Hom

my heart is beating..

yeah, right now =]

Have been waiting his new songs for a bloody long long time. This song is absolutely fantastic and amazing & thanks god that lee hom didn't let me down(at least to me). He looks pretty HOT in it and y'All feel free to browse yeahhh ;) Thanks!!

He's being GREAT all the time

That's why he melts my heart.

Could you feel my heartbeat?

p.s: Have a wonderful trip to minzhi & family. Enjoy YAY!

loves,
Jocelyn

2008-12-07T03:24:00.000-08:00

When i always think of certain things, my mood sway away to the very low.

I feel like screaming, i feel like slamming, i feel like crying.
& no matter how i tried, i just can't get away from the feelings.

=[

Jocelyn

Twilight trailer : ]

2008-11-25T04:37:00.000-08:00

I can't wait to watch it =]

Geezzz!!

bless me for my Chinese papers tomorrow :)

Jocelyn

2008-11-18T05:15:00.000-08:00

Thanks god that the sense of fear that i've been struggling a long while has finally gone away, far far away from me!!

Jocelyn

A break ?

2008-11-14T04:56:00.000-08:00

Finally comes the time for a break, but only for a few days :S
4 papers down and another 4 more papers to go, awaiting me. *help*
and thanks god that two of my worst subject ( Sejarah & BM) are over. but the maths paper have totally made me mad, shit total of the frequency and the graph, the number is 40, after five time of calculating it, my answer was still 39. I don't know what's wrong with my calculator or what else that time, i was freaking nervous at that very moment. don't ask why =.=
Got back my school report card today, the results are still dissatisfied plus the deducted marks for not attending the typing class, and my position supposed to be count-ed backwards, but surprisingly, it turned out to be quite front(but not in top 10 lar, haha). and IT does really surprised me, a lot a lot. 0.0

What else.? Show you some random pictures taken recently:

6.11.08 on her birthday ~Mee with an unique bowl. :)

my dear JOO with her sexy sunglasses at kueh's tuition :D
& Happy belated birthday on 2.11.08. ^^

7.11.08 at Jase's tea house.
(Ice-blended vanilla & A slice of Rum&Raisins Cheese Cake).

I have to get back to study. :[

GOOD LUCK everyone =)

Signing off,
Jocelyn

2008-10-24T04:58:00.000-07:00

i'm regret for not bringing my camera along today..

No pictures =[

& i'm looking forward to the last day of SPM. shit :(

I can't wait !!!

Jocelyn

hey dere :D

2008-10-23T07:46:00.000-07:00

hi people..

i think my blog would be dead for a bloody long time due to the upcoming stressful exams...=[[
I am speaking seriously now, i should work really really hard for it'' since i got back my report card week ago, the results were painfully disappointed, and it was my very first time for scoring such worse results in school, shameful to say, it was like nearly failed. =.=

so now, i have really need to put more effort on it to pull back my marks, or at least make some improvement.

I have to stay away from computer..
I have to really say no to TV..
I have to stop reading TWILIGHT..
I have to really get my history work done asap, or before exams , still have a bunch of questions to go. =[

i shall better make a pause here, and i might not going to update.
Probably will be back after trial exams or SPM. =/

Good luck to all UEC & SPM candidates.

but how could i make it for the stupid SPM?

See you then :D

Jocelyn

Happy 18th :)

2008-10-17T02:44:00.000-07:00

So, it's her great day today. She has just turned into 18th today(oh man, so old liao)....

...

Ahhh....crap!

She is my cousin who went by a name of Chan Min Zhi. (don't get wrong people, i'm Min Yii)
I can do nothing but a warmest post for her...

because..

she's now living in a bloody HELL place called KL which is thousand miles away from her hometown KUCHING. well, i know how suffering it is. =PP

Btw, this post is for you :)

NAHHH...

Happy Sweet 18th cousin =)
Hope you're doing great all the times & all the best in everything =D

Be patient. 49 more days to go.
i know. xp

much loves,
Jocelyn C:

The last PE lesson :[

2008-10-07T07:00:00.000-07:00

Remembering how reluctantly we used to be to attend for the PE lesson. Everyone went like: Oh gosh, it's MONDAY again, PE lesson again. SIEN arrrrrrrrrh : /

but on 06.10.08* this day, it's our last PE lesson in high school, and yeah, it just finally come to the end. =]

Let's show some pictures of the day:

This was taken before our PE lesson.
SHE is such a good poser :)

The so-called "ah beng" aka BONG CHU HUI. Drum freak :]

Sorry for the otherssss

Another THREE GOOD posersss~~

Magdalene, Susan, Rainbow & Michelle

She and her ^^

Oh My...he's good at acting..

"Ah pek oi ah pek"..the healthiest pek ever..whoo!!he does his daily exercises there. i've seen him for years.
He could join the next Olympic for the marathon.

Aren't they kissing? So gayy

With our PE teacher.. see ah suak..

So, no more shameful exercises like push-ups, sit-ups, back-ups,
No more basketball, badminton, table tennis, jogging, whateverrrrrr....
No more finding excuses to escape for it...

BUT, we all gonna miss the TIME.

loves,
Jocelyn

Twilight

2008-10-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

I was stained, with a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew, what was right I just didn't know that I might
Peel away and choose to see with such a different sight

And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I've seen, cause I've seen, twilight

Never cared never wanted
Never sought to see what flaunted
So on purpose so in my face Couldn't see beyond my own place
And it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
But you taught me I could change Whatever came within these shallow days

And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I've seen, cause I've seen

As the sun shines through it pushes away and pushes ahead
It fills the warmth of blue and leaves a chill instead and
I didn't know that I could be so blind to all that is so real
But as illusion dies I see there is so much to be revealed

And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I've seen, cause I've seen, twilight

I was stained, by a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew, what was right
I just didn't know that I might
Peel away and choose to see with such a different sight

And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I've seen, cause I've seen, TWILIGHT...

对生命的体会

2008-10-02T02:14:00.000-07:00

同样的风景, 心中存有悲观的人以悲伤的心情; 心存有乐观的人以快乐的心情观赏风景; 同样的风景, 因为人的心态而有了不同的体会.

不要只以单一的心情去看同样的风景, 因为那并不完整.

唯有那些心中对生命诚恳, 对死亡谦卑的人们, 选择了包容两者的对立, 才能够观赏到两者同时都存在的风景, 既悲伤, 也快乐; 既悲观, 也乐观. 包容这两者之间的对立, 这样才能够看到生命的整体.

这, 才是真实的生命.

这, 才算是活过...

这是摘自<<中学生>>里的一段话, 觉得很有感触.

Jocelyn

2008-09-26T01:36:00.000-07:00

Today's sheets was just like a 'SHIT'

:[

Jocelyn's messing up.

21.09.08

2008-09-22T01:33:00.000-07:00

full of "heads". taken from the 2nd floor of the hall

bun, here you are =D

One day over, this post was blogged in a rush. Hope all of you enjoy it.

Good Day :D

Jocelyn

It's my day !

2008-09-20T01:30:00.000-07:00

First of all, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to myself and I =)
A very big "THANK YOU" to everyone for making such day so wonderful, so memorable. yea, just like what sandy said that my birthday was a hectic one with continuous exams. It's so stressful but i'mma happy :)

thanks for the cake, thanks for the presents, thanks for the cards, thanks for the warmest wishes, thanks for the message, thanks for everything that all of you have done for me.

This is a late post actually :D

Jocelyn